Disloyal

Nothing was here for me before your arrival,
I was wandering bewildered in a vacuum,
In search of oxygen of happiness and peace,
To breath in and live on as a balanced man.
                          You rushed into my life like a storm,
                           Uninvited,unwarranted but desired,
                           With a shower of hope,future and dream,
                           Of settlement,stability and good fortune.
I greeted and trusted you with all my heart,
Cried near you my condition my grief,
Showed you my sufferings, my wound,
Everything I shared frankly and honestly.
                           You took pity on me or may be got impressed,
                            By my truth,simplicity and openness,
                            Caressed my head,"I am with you",
                             "To love and live for you." you assured.
I still was hesitant, not knew why,
Warned you of this emotional bond,
"Not an act of a child, think and rethink over it"
 "Its an ocean of fire, that you called love."
                           " Once you commit would never be able to omit,
                             Be confident of what you said and I heard."
                             "Its an unchangeable, once in a life time act,
                             There is still for you time you can go back."
You nod in affirmation listening to all my words,
Confidence and character reflected in your deeds.
Face and smile hanging on it confirmed your love,
That as I believe for me  in your heart you have.
                          I began regarding each of your emotions,
                          Fulfilling your demands willingly or otherwise,
                           Bowed to your coquettish whims in the name of love
                          Gave you  much attention that you never deserve.
But you,may be had for love your own definition,
Gifts,parties,enjoyments, for you are the features of relation
You believe love to be a bond of body, I a blend of mind.
Hence I stay away than to be despite such a huge gap in opinion
                       You know I can not bow to do against my will any further
                        And wished to be physically away but mentally together,
                        I do not have any petty,sensual or material  expectation,
                       May you call me disloyal but God knows of my decision.


                          

LIFE AND DEATH

When life comes,
               Blows  it's great guns,
                       Cries while coming,
                                But let others happy.
When death comes,
            Comes stealthy,unnoticed,
                     Bearing smiles on its face,
                                     But makes all cry. 
Life is very disloyal,
       Can not be trusted to come,
                       Goes back at its will,
                           Even after knocking.
But death is not disloyal,
          Its smart and punctual,
                    Reaches in its time,
                           Any how every where.
when a child comes we became happy but when someone our near and dear goes we cry out.But this is a naked truth that we came here to go away one day.

फ़िक्र-ए-इश्क़

फ़िक्र-ए-इश्क़ के ऊपर फ़िक्र-ए रोजगार हावी  हो जाता  है ,
वर्ना   हम भी आशिक  थे अव्वल  दर्जे के ।

ख्याल-ए- माशुका से पहले फ़िक्र-ए-रोजगार आ  जाता  है ,
वर्ना  हम तो दीवाने थे तेरी  मुश्कान के । 

लाल परी

तेरी बेवफाई ने तो मेरी जान निकाल ही ली थी ,
लाल परी ने फिर से मेरी जान में जान डाल दी। 

सरीक-ए-गम

सरीक-ए-गम आप  न हो सके ,
                   रफ़ीक -ए-हयात आप क्या होते ?
अगर हम दिल की लगी आपसे कर लेते ,
                        जिंदगी काटे नहीं कटती रोते रोते। 

SEDUCTION

She does all possible efforts to seduce him,
With her wild beauty,youth and feminine fragrance.
Anticipates him to react to her erotic message,
And surrender to her untold ,unuttered desire.
But he never bowed to beastly instincts,
Never pay attention to such temporary things. 
Worships heart not body as she expects,
And is always against publicising private aspects.
Hence he preferred to run away from here, 
And remain safe, pious behind his closed door. 

BLESSED

I feel deserted,restless and lonely,
Like a solitary, helpless soul,
Among the shouting, fighting crowd,
Of  this busy for nothing world.
                                        I feel the urge to share my mind,
                                        My solitude, wish,hope and my heart,
                                        My feelings,expectations, sorrow,  pain
                                        With you, her , him and Him.
But you, her and him,
Surrounding me and my life
Are all on your own track,
That never seems touching mine.
                                         Living an egocentric,materialistic life,
                                         I knew none would like to hear me,
                                         And believe me,my facts, my truth.
                                         Unrelated to them on this fast moving earth.
Hence I preferred the last option Him,
And confide Him my words, my pain,
But He neither replied nor assured me,
I went away very sad,dejected to sleep.
                                        In dream, I feel a tap on my back,
                                        And heard someone said to me,"Son,
                                         I am with you, never be worried,
                                         I will despatch as per your deed."
A current went through my vein,
I got up bold,confident with my pen,
To believe ,trust and rely on Him
And work,write, live or die for Him. 

COME BACK

Every day,I go that way,
Where we first  saw each other,
Our eyes met,hearts vibrated speedily, simultaneously,
We exchanged smiles,introduced ourself ,
Recognised and acknowledged the feelings we had,
Hidden in our heart for each other.
The germinated new powerful emotion,
Forced both of us to go there,
Everyday, same time, without fail,
Punctually like the loudspeaker of a Mosque or the Church bell,
To feel a new unseen pleasure,sensation,
That we both intended to part with.
Our venue changed as the time progressed,
The shopping mall,the first day movie cinema hall,
Cushions of ice-cream parlours,
Neon lights of hotel banquet hall,sensuous parks,
Moonlit dread-lonely roads and my pillion,
Witnessed hours of whispers,fake cry and laughters.
All on a sudden I do not know what happened to you,
You disappeared uninformed from the scene, 
Or may be from the city,
As if you have promised to yourself,
Not to be among them any day,
Those were our favourites,
Just in order to test my patience,
Or to make my thirst more intense.
But I know,believe it is temporary from you ,
Or may be you are under some compulsion.
As you can not be wrong,unfaithful or deceiver,
More over you are not a passed time,
Which could never come back again,
You know I am your present and I am confident,
To be your future,hence you must come back,
Today,  tomorrow or day after,
Before its too late and before I leave the earth,
With a shy in my mind, with a cry in my heart
I am waiting for you,you must take note of that.  

I MISS YOU MUCH

Without the echo of your voice,the morning air goes dumb,
Or may be due to reason unknown, my heart goes numb.
               The blazing heat and killing humid of the summer noon,
               Ineffective for me as your presence  provide me cool sensation.
But without you, through out this hot day from dawn to dusk,
I feel restless,lonely, harassed,undone,bewildered  and hurt.
               In the evening, the moon light soft and cool,
               In your absence pinch my body mind and soul.
Night without you unimaginable, I can not picture the scene.
Long,unending, sleepless, boring, horrible like a bad dream.
              Without you  my life, my youth,my entity is such,
              Come to me,hold me hard and close., I miss you much.