It was a very difficult promise to make

It was a very difficult promise to make,

To myself and to you,

But I made it.

I promised,

That days, nights, months and seasons.

Will pass over my head,

But I will not let you hear,

The beeping of my crying heart,

My lips will not part,

To tell you anything of my heart's content.

I promised,

To confine myself in my room,

And not venture to see the moon.

To adjust myself with the darkness,

And not wish to switch on a light.

I promised,

That I will learn to live,

Without your wise counsel,

Without your compassionate guidance,

Without the shower of your blessings.

I promised,

To live without my heart's heart.

Though it was a very difficult promise,

But when I  made it,

And I know I will carry it out.